Thursday, July 25, 2013

Life Lately

Hey there. Remember me? Yep, I’ve been gone for a while but you’ll be getting no apologies from me. Amanda’s blog yesterday was a good reminder to me that because this is my blog, I shouldn’t ever really have to apologize for lack of posting, brutal honesty, or the sometimes random things I have to share.

So back to it. Life lately? It’s been pretty busy. Is it seriously almost August?!? Summer is flying by. I’ve got all sorts of things on my mind these days. Let’s dive right in.

Baby blues. I’m just going to be honest here – I’ve been in a bit of a funk. For a while after we lost our pregnancy, I was coping pretty well and ready to move forward. But lately, I’ve found myself thinking more and more about where I’d be in my pregnancy right now, and having a harder time seeing those around me getting pregnant and becoming mommies. But don’t worry, from what I can tell, the emotions that come along with something like this definitely ebb and flow, so it’s not like I sit around constantly weeping (at least not most days, hah). I feel incredibly blessed in so many ways, so I’m trying to focus on those good things and pray that God will answer other prayers, too.  

Healing music. Music has been a great comfort to me lately. Whether it’s a meaningful song or just something I like to bounce around to, it helps distract me from my thoughts and focus on the good. A few of my latest favorite obsessions (many are recently discovered to me, but not new songs by any means):
  • Jason Isbell - love Cover Me Up, Stockholm, and Different Days
  • All Sons & Daughters - listening to Spirit Speaks and Great You Are Lord on repeat lately
  • Matthew West - Hold You Up (a friend of the bride sang this at our friends' wedding recently and I am so in love with it!)
  • Delta Rae - If I Loved You
  • Robin Thicke - Blurred Lines (yep, totally gave into social pressure and jumped on the bandwagon that is this song, though I imagine the wagon will be leaving town soon)
Strange superstition. Let me preface this by saying, I’m generally not a superstitious person. I was looking through photos on my phone and was reminded of the time Sean and I discovered the carton of eggs we bought at the store had several double-yolk eggs in it. (Side note: After a little bit of research, apparently this isn’t as uncommon as I liked to think it was at the time.) I remember thinking it was good luck, and sure enough, a couple weeks later we found out we were pregnant. So when I discovered this picture lately, I became convinced that we needed some more double-yolk eggs to bring us luck (See #1 above). Sure enough, Sean cracks open a hard-boiled egg last night to discover a double-yolk egg. And this morning, I had one, too. Call me crazy (and I am crazy, I’m sure), but I’m crossing my fingers that these eggs bring us some good luck soon, too.  

Fun plans. Summer has been flying by and we’ve been having a lot of fun with friends and family – between weddings, softball games, barbecues, softball games, street festivals, and swimming. And, we still have lots more ahead – more weddings, Sean’s dad’s memorial golf tournament, cabin trips with friends, and parties galore.   
1. Highland Fest - a small street festival in our neighborhood. 2. A Sunday afternoon by the pool. 3. A gorgeous night at the softball fields. 4. Puppy snuggles - how cute is that face? 5. A 4th of July BBQ with Sean's family  6. Shaved ice - a summer staple for us!
Summer clothes. The other day, I decided to make a quick trip to Gap over my lunch hour, hoping maybe to find 1-2 summer items on sale. Imagine my surprise when I walked out with more than $240 in clothes for less than $60! I was quite pleased. I found a sweater, a tank, and 2 dresses, including one I had been stalking online (after seeing a coworker with the same dress) but kept talking myself out of (got it for almost $50 less!). I also got a pair of colored skinny crops. When Sean asked why so many people are wearing them these days and why I didn’t own a pair, I told him it was because I didn’t think I could pull them off. I was pretty excited to find a pair I liked, for super cheap, and to have Sean tell me, “See, you can pull them off. They look good.” What did he do with my husband?
Excuse the cell-phone quality dressing room photo, but I know I can't be the only one who thinks a photo is sometimes a better way to confirm a purchase than the mirror itself.

So that’s kind of it for my randomness as of late. What’s new with all of you? Any fun plans for the last half of summer?


  1. Hi Hun. I saw your comment on Casey's blog and had to jump over to say hello. I lost our first baby back in March as well. I coped well ... but recently, I too have been thinking randomly about where I would be in my pregnancy, or how I'd be preparing for the baby, or how different my life would be right now if I were pregnant.

    I have faith that all things happen for a reason. And maybe it's just to help me keep moving along. But I believe that that baby was meant to only be with us for a short time. It wasn't meant to visit earth yet. What will be will be.

    If you ever want to reach out to me and chat, I'd love that. I know it's difficult to find the words with friends or family who have never been there. My greatest support system came from complete strangers who reached out to me and shared their stories - so here I am, sharing mine with you.

    Sending you lots of love :)


  2. Hey friend. Thinking of you. While I don't know what a like to lose a baby, I know how difficult infertility is. And it sucks. I'm always here. Email me whenever.

  3. Woo! No apologies :) I LOVE the green crops! Obviously. You have good taste. Also, I'm sure it's hard not to think about where you'd be in your pregnancy. I hope you stay positive and keep smiling, friend!