Tuesday, December 10, 2013


“Latellllly, been thinkin’ ‘bout you baby….” Am I the only one who thinks of this song from nearly a decade ago when you use the word “lately?” Just me? Yep. Ok, moving on.

So I’ve been MIA for a little while. I’ve still been reading blogs nearly daily. And I’ve logged into Blogger at least a couple times a week with every intention of writing, but always felt like it was not enough. But I’ve been craving it more and more lately, so I’m just going to jump back in. Try and come back, for good.

I wish I could say there are a lot of exciting things to update you on, but the truth is, it’s been a pretty quiet couple of months. But sometimes quiet is good, too. A random sampling of what we’ve been up to these last few months:

Recovering: I’ve still been recovering (physically and emotionally) from my second ectopic pregnancy. Thankfully, they caught this one early enough that the physical recovery was less intensive. We’ve had lots of check-ins with doctors and waiting for next steps, but still no success yet. Hopefully we’ll be able to move forward soon and will eventually get to realize our dream of becoming parents! We also came upon what would have been the due date for our first pregnancy. Work had been especially crazy for me, and that particular day was long and stressful. I got home late to find that Sean had bought me roses and made me my favorite kind of cake. It was the sweetest thing! 

Shooting my first gun: With Sean being trained in law enforcement, guns come somewhat naturally to him. For me? Not so much. I didn’t grow up with them and definitely don’t feel comfortable around them. But he did convince me to try it, and I successfully shot my first gun. We also took a safety/permit-to-carry course, where I had to shoot again. I will not be using or carrying a gun anytime in the near future (or ever), but I am slightly more comfortable with them, at least. 
Weddings: We only had 5 weddings this year (half as many as last year), but they were all a blast. We had our last one in late September, for one of Sean’s friends from high school. It was a beautiful fall day, and always a fun time. 
Birthdays: The vast majority of my closest friends are ones that I grew up with (either from elementary and/or high school). So since we're almost all the same age, this is a big year for us with our 30th birthdays coming around. The celebrations have begun! (It’s not my turn until February). We’re also going to try and do one big hurrah with all of us girls – maybe a weekend away or maybe just a night out on the town. 
Babies (not ours, see the first item above): Two of my best friends have had their babies – one boy and one girl. Lots of other friends are having babies right now, too. They’re everywhere! As someone struggling in this department, it can admittedly be hard sometimes, but it’s also really fun and really exciting to see our friends become parents! 
Patrick and Nora. Can you guess who is older? It may not be who you think!
Night on the town: For our anniversary earlier this year, Sean and I got each other tickets to see Wicked. It finally arrived in town this fall. We had dinner at Hell’s Kitchen first (delish!) and really enjoyed the show. I love going to a show. If I had a great deal of disposable income, I’d get season tickets to a theater for sure. 
Other things as of late? Sean started a new job that seems to be going well for him so far. My job has been incredibly busy - and fun - but is finally quieting down just a bit. Our families are doing well, and we enjoy spending time with them as much as we can. Still loving our fur-baby Oliver, the snuggle pup. And like every other Minnesotan, despising the sub-zero temperatures and wishing spring wasn't so far away! 

And so here we are, already half-way through the holiday season.

I know for many people, the holidays can be a tough time of year. This season has a way of amplifying emotions, the good and the bad. Missing loved ones, struggling financially, maybe feeling alone. I’ve certainly experienced this rollercoaster myself many times. But this year, something has been different. I’ve felt this overwhelming sense of peace, of hope. I can’t explain it. Nothing has changed in our lives or situation, but I’m finding ways to lean into all that we have to be grateful for and trust in whatever may be ahead for us.

As I was unpacking our Christmas stuff for the season, I was trying to remember how I was feeling last Christmas, or even the one before. I decided that I want to write myself a letter to put in the Christmas box when we put it away this year, so that next year I can read it and reflect on where we were in December 2013. It sounds dumb, I know, but I think it’s so easy to get wrapped up in the challenges and the emotions of the right now. Time moves so quickly that often, before you know it, things are different (not always better, but different). I want to remember the important things in our lives from this year, but also be able to reflect on them next year and be grateful for how things have (or maybe have not) changed. Celebrate the victories, embrace the continued challenges, and allow me to enter the next holiday season with another hopeful perspective. 

So that sums it up, albeit briefly and in somewhat abbreviated form. Hoping to make this a much more regular occurrence, not just a quarterly update on our rather boring life. 

Hope you're having a happy holiday season! 


  1. A letter to yourself is not dumb at all! I kind of want to do that. I love your attitude and hope this season. Wishing you well :)

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